Staying in the Groove

 

Oak Tree at Nepenthe, Erin Lee Gafill, c)2012 48"x60"

Oak Tree at Nepenthe III, Erin Lee Gafill, c)2012 48"x60"

Of course first you have to get INTO the groove!

But after two weeks of crossing the country (California to Connecticut and back again) and another two weeks teaching in Mexico topped off by a weekend workshop teaching painting at Esalen Institute in Big Sur, I came home revved up and raring to go and somehow got into the groove more quickly than usual.

How did it happen?  And how do I stay there? That’s the topic of today’s blog – staying in the groove once you get there.  Because we all know how hard it is to get there in the first place.

Here are seven strategies I am employing – all tried and true.  Even if only ONE works for you it will be worth your time reading about them.

First Habit: Work in multiples.  I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again.  If you have more than one of any motif in the works (I have 5 paintings going concurrently as we speak) you will stay out of the analytical mindset that can rob your work of creative fire.

Second Habit: Dedicate a consistent amount of time sequentially.  Today I started a little late because I had a run in with a mouse in my coffee cup.  Has that ever happened to you?  This is a subject for another blog (which I’ll write one of these days once my heart stops pounding) but right now, my goal is to paint four hours a day five days a week.

For some that is too little, for some it is too much.  After three months of intensive application of this method a few years ago, I discovered that this amount is just right for me.  It allows me meandering time, gardening time, writing time, housekeeping time.  If I go much longer my work begins to feel hackneyed, repetitive, and boring.  If I stop short of four hours I end up with a feeling of a lot of work in without much to show for results – and that’s discouraging.  Four hours, daily, is just about the right number (for me) and I stick to it because it works.

Try this:  dedicate a certain amount of time daily for five days in a row and keep track of whether it is too much, too little, or just enough.  Repeat the following week and adjust as needed.  Pay attention to your output and quality of output.  In a month, you will know a lot more about your ideal work habit than you do now. Note.The amount of time is up to you.  It could be 10 minutes.  The goal is setting a goal, being consistent, and paying attention.  Then adapt as needed.

Third Habit:  Consider your work – all work – a rough draft or “study” while you are painting it. Often in my workshops students ask me, “how do you change your painting style when you are actually painting a painting vs. painting a study.”  To which I reply,  “All my paintings are studies,” I say.

How does this help?  It allows you to revise and to adjust as need be – and to do another one and another one – because your goal is always to learn.  To learn how to see and render better – to create a better version of what is inside you to create.  Each physical manifestation of your idea – an abstract, a landscape, a still life, a portrait – is just another step on the journey to being a better painter, a better interpreter.

If you look at your work this way, you will work better, create more, enjoy it more, suffer less, and your work will improve faster.

Fourth Habit:  Work laterally.  If the thing itself is overwhelming, approach from many different angles.  Let’s say you’re working on a series of still lifes. Do a collage of the painting. Choose a color combination (say the orange of the orange and the blue of the blue teapot) and just play with those two colors on paper, abstractly, with no subject.  Take 10 minutes to “free write” without self-interruption, self-censorship, or self-judgment.  Start with a prompt like “I remember” or “I don’t remember” and then put the writing aside and go back to work.  Set a timer for 10 minutes and prune the roses, read a poem, or put in a load of wash, and when the timer goes off go back to work.  Meditate for one minute and then go back to work.  All of these approaches are doing the work but doing it in a different way – allowing you to access your brain from different points, shifting from left brain thinking to right brain thinking.

Fifth Habit: Give yourself deadlines/time limits. The goal can be something as simple as “I will finish covering the canvas by the time the timer goes off.”  Notice that it is not “I will produce a masterpiece by the time the timer goes off,” or even “I will finish the painting by the time the timer goes off.”  Simply covering the canvas is enough – one coat of paint, an under-painting, even priming the canvas in a color may be what you do to accomplish this goal.  But the painting will no longer be pristine, white, inviolate, untouched.  It will be the beginning.

Sixth Habit:  Get in the habit of beginning.  Try starting earlier than your analytical brain is awake – before your first cup of coffee, even, before you have begun to second guess yourself.  When your inner critic wakes up, start something else.  This might confuse your inner critic who is busily trying to think up things to say about your first piece.  Repeat as necessary.

Seventh Habit.  Don’t compare.  Don’t compare your work with other work you have done or others’ work that they have done.  Most paintings in art books are the master works of Master Artists.  Looking at others work is not a bad idea in and of itself as it can inspire and inform.  But looking at other artists’ works while you are working on your own work is a bad idea if it makes you discouraged or gets you down.  Know thyself.  If you must compare, then set the timer and give yourself a limited amount of minutes to look at others’ works from the lens of how they do what they do.  Thengo back and do what you do.

Well – there are more habits, and ideas, I’d love to share but my timer just went off and now its time to go back to the drawing board.

Happy Painting!
Erin

p.s. I’m teaching at Esalen Institute February 3-8 and 8-11 for two back to back Passion of Painting Workshops in 2013.  The first workshop will focus on processes and techniques for creating paintings looking at landscape, abstraction, still life, and even the figure.  The second workshop focuses on making art while building creative habits for an integrated life.  I hope you can join me for one, the other, or both!

p.p.s.  If you want to read more about ideas like these, check out  The Most Valuable Lesson I Learned From Playing the Violin.  My friend Kelly Medford shared it in her most recent blogpost and now I share it with you.  Kelly is an American artist living and painting in Rome, Italy.  Her posts are always inspiring as she is currently committed to a daily practice of plein air painting and daily posting.  Adventures in Painting is a daily “wake up” call to do what you love to do – and pay attention to the things you notice along the way.  For anyone who loves painting, loves Italy, and doesn’t mind living vicariously through an intrepid artist as she roams the countryside in search of her next subject.

 

 

 

Esalen: Passion of Painting Workshops June and August 2012

After an amazing weekend of art shows and openings, I’m home now preparing for next week’s five day workshop at Esalen Institute.

For the first time ever, I’m offering a five day Passion of Painting workshop.

Is there anywhere more spectacular to teach?  Esalen’s offerings include food grown in their organic gardens, fresh home made bread, hot sulphur baths perched over the crashing surf, beautiful grounds vibrant with gorgeous flowers and rolling green lawns, and (of course) amazing workshops that connect the mind and body with the heart.

I love teaching at Esalen.  I am particularly thrilled that my signature Passion of Painting workshop will play out over a five day period allowing me to take each component and run with it fully.  From painting color fields using house painting brushes to torn paper collage to gestural and contour drawing, free writing, and timed exercises, we will explore, create, and play.

If five days isn’t enough, join me in August (17, 18, and 19) for another go at diving deep and painting hard.  There is still room in both workshops.

Go to www.esalen.org to register.

 

 

Carmel Art Festival 2012 – in retrospect

Plein Air Painting for the 2012 Carmel Art Festival c) Erin Lee Gafill

Eucalyptus Stand, Molera c)2012

Looking back on the festival this year I’ve been thinking about some of the lessons learned, or thoughts had along the way. Other artists I know say they would never do a festival like this because of the pressure to perform. For me, it works the other way. Without some kind of pressure, a deadline, a goal, I lack the fire to create a structure that will bring me to the work. So the pressure of having only Wednesday night through Friday night to create something decent – at least two paintings to turn in Saturday morning – drives me to paint paint paint paint paint.

The more I paint the more likely I am to have those two good pieces. If I’m lucky I’ll get more than two pieces I’m happy with out of the whole experience, but if its only two that’s still two more than I might have had otherwise.

This year I painted one piece Wednesday evening, four or five Thursday, and five or six Friday. I was pretty sure I had my best paintings early Friday morning and Tom delivered them to the judging tent for me while I continued working away. I figured if I ended up getting something better than those two I could drive myself in and replace the ones I’d given.

This year I chose to paint close to home and to paint the same location from various times of day: 7am, 8am, 11am, 1pm, 4pm, 7pm. Over the course of three days I revisited the terrace at Nepenthe, looking a the oak tree that silhouettes the mountains and coastline, and observing and painting the changing light, mood, and atmosphere.

At one point I changed my orientation, too, incorporating part of the terrace, umbrellas, and chairs into my foreground. By then I’d been painting for about five or six hours in the same spot and my paint was beginning to turn into tar. I normally don’t paint in the middle of the day – and if I do I am under shade of some sort – but this time it was full sun with no shade at all.

I don’t paint out of doors mid-day as a rule, but here I was doing just that, so my rule of thumb is to tilt my canvas so that it is getting as much light as my palette. That way the colors are consistent. Usually when I take plein air work back inside after working out of doors for hours I notice that I have been working too dark. Eventually I adjust (this seems to happen subconsciously) but the first few paintings I really make notes to myself about alterations in value.

By the end of the last day I was ready for a change of location. I went for a “walkabout” looking at different vistas, structures, trees, and patterns of light and dark before settling on cluster of prickly pear plants in the garden below Nepenthe. But as I loaded my paints, easel, and bag of primed canvases into the car I found myself leaving the property and heading north to Andrew Molera State Park, a location I’ve painted many times and had painted the evening before.

It was 6pm by then and I knew from my previous painting excursion that the light would be perfect but feared there might be a fierce wind, as there had been the day before. So I started by painting the old barn near the horse pasture down by the river, a sheltered location which allowed me just enough room to set up for painting. Unfortunately the shady side of the structure was not available for me to view – there was some kind of convention of campers in the place I usually paint – so I ended up with a light-bleached barn that ended up being pretty flat and disappointing.

But I still had one more hour of daylight so I drove further north to the pullout in front of the old cabin under the Eucalyptus trees, and the lighting was golden, and the wind was low. I set up my easel, tucked in a toned canvas, and scraped the last shreds of white off my palette lid to lighten my paint – - – just enough to create the bright evening sky behind the eucyalyptus trees, and the the snaking path between the fields.

It was, in the end, my favorite painting of all – and it sold the next day to a couple from Nebraska who I had met the day before at Nepenthe. I enjoyed it while I had it – enjoyed its old California tonality and simplicity, bravura brushstrokes, and speed of accomplishment. I’m glad I snapped a picture of it with my iPhone, my only record, but most of all I’m glad I hung in there for three days of fierce painting to get to the point where I could create a record in less than an hour of one of my favorite spots on the coast.

the morning after

sleeping through sunrise waking to hot sun shining through the windows, a hungry cat, and a delivery truck driver at the door needing me to move the car . . . ah, bliss -

the last few days have been a marathon of painting, painting before the sun is up, painting in pullouts in fierce wind, canvases flying into fields, painting dawn and dusk and the hot midday light in between.

Checking my spam filter this morning is almost soothing – mindless, and funny.  “Dear Beloved,” writes one amorous correspondent.  “The price of joy,” another . the beginnings of poetry, but false promises all.

The pay-off of painting so intensely is there can be no falseness in it – by the time you have worn yourself out there is only truth left to tell.  My favorite painting was painted at the last hour of the last day of the competition, the sun was going down, and the wind was kicking into high gear.  My oils had been baking all day in hot sun – I had to scrape the palette lid to get any white at all, and my brushes were murky to say the least.  But I hung in there, and when I was done, I was really done.

Home to a cold bourbon and a hot bath, and I slept like a baby.

 

Rancho La Puerta

After three weeks of driving across the country and back again selling art work, meeting clients, teaching classes, interviewing galleries, reuniting with friends and family, and generally burning up the shoe leather, we are now south bound for Rancho La Puerta, or Eden, Heaven on Earth, Shangrila, or even, for Tom and me, our own personal Nirvana.

It took us a long time – too long – to learn the value of rest to our lives and work. Perhaps it is the nature of being young parents, with the constant tugging of little ones at your knees with rent looming and crises around every corner, external pressures of life and survival dueling it out with internal pressures to connect with our native gifts and find our creative path.

Whatever it was, the idea of a vacation just never really caught on in our little family. Work was always paramount. Out of necessity or inclination, idle time simply didn’t exist and we didn’t seek it out. After a while you lose the capacity to slow down, do nothing. And you lose something else when you lose that. You lose space. You lose spaciousness. You lose the breathing room to refill your lungs, your heart, your soul. You run on empty, and believe me, you can run marathons that way, climb mountains, conquer goals. But it is like building a castle in sand. Eventually, what you have built begins to erode. You cannot take joy in your work, you are too tired, too bitter.

It was my mother who first brought me to Rancho La Puerta. I didn’t think I could afford it – the money or the time. She helped me with the first, and Tom helped me with the second. “go!” he said. “We will be fine. It’s just a week.”. Picking up the slack for me at work and at home, he gave me his blessing and sent me off feeling free to enjoy the experience with no guilt.

Within a day at the Ranch I knew I had discovered something beyond wonderful. I discovered breathing again. Walking on Mount Kuchuma in the mornings, I found myself alone with walkers ahead and behind, creating a safe bubble within which I could hear the mountain speak. At night I dreamt dreams I remember to this day. Each day I found my body relaxing more deeply, my heart opening more fully. During one cranio-sacral session, I began to cry so hard my chest hurt from the pain of sobbing. Memories – good and bad – surfaced allowing me a chance to reclaim lost joy, while understanding early traumas in a safe environment and from an adult perspective.

At the end of the week I truly felt like I had reclaimed a kind of vitality I felt I had lost long before, with faith that I could carry the healing and wisdom of the Ranch experience into my life back in the real world.

Part of what happens is physical. Good food, clean air and lots of breathing, exercise and the mountain. Part is spiritual. The mountain talks to you, if you are ready to listen. Part is interpersonal. Somehow you always meet the people you are meant to experience the Ranch with. And part is simply beyond explanation. MystIcal? Maybe. Magical, definitely.

I will always be grateful to my mother for introducing me to the Ranch, and have repaid Tom by bringing him along as a fellow teacher the last six times we’ve visited, as presenters now, teaching art and photography and cultivating community through creativity. In these past several years, our lives and work have been transformed. I credit much of the change we have undergone to our weeks at Rancho La Puerta, gaining understanding and perspective in a sublime environment which allows us to rest, relax, and restore ourselves to our innately joyful and energetic selves.

Today we will begin our seventh week of teaching at Rancho La Puerta. Next time, I hope we see you there!

Rekindling the Flame

One summer in Argentina when I was sixteen years old, living with a host family and attending a parochial Catholic high school, I went into the country for a spiritual retreat, a kind of youth camp for young Catholics or, in my case, spiritual seekers.

There was a lot of prayer, and talking, studying and singing, shared meals, shared tears, and long into the night conversations with people my age and lay ministers, exploring ideas of living a spiritual life in a material world. How did we want the world we were entering to look like? What was our role to play?

One evening there was a prayer service around a bonfire in the forest close to the lodge where we were staying. After the priest had spoken, we each lit our candles from the fire and began the long silent walk back in.

My candle went out suddenly. I remember feeling a kind of panic. We weren’t supposed to say anything, and I didn’t know what to do, or what it meant. Was it a sign? Could I go back and relight my candle from the fire, or was that a kind of cheating? What did it mean that my candle and no one else’s had gone out? how could I move forward, what would I do? All these thoughts flickered quickly, probably consuming less than a second, and in that second, a young man leaned toward me and relit my candle from his own and then continued onward. And I saw that a little further ahead another candle had flickered out and I moved forward to light it with my own. And so it went, each of us seeing the need, responding, relighting one another’s flame, no words spoken and none needed, until we were inside the house chapel and seated.

I don’t remember the sermons we heard, or the advice we were given or even the names of the others I shared that evening with. But I have never forgotten the experience of losing my light, and being restored to it, and the lessons it taught me.

Painting Your Life

photo by Tom Birmingham

Log Cabin Still LIfe, photo by Tom Birmingham

Painting today, still lifes in oil from a grouping of ginger jars, fruit, and flowers I set up on my piano a few days ago . . . I think of Bruce Weber’s suggestion that I paint my life. I think about the strength of this advice being that it connects you artistically with the core of your being.  That when you paint the things and the contexts of your daily existence, or photograph or write about those things, the images you create are more likely to be infused with emotion and connection.

Looking at the still lifes that are evolving today I am struck with how familiar they seem.  Of course, these are all things I look at all the time – they are my things, my grandmother’s things, things people have given me, things from the kitchen (apples, tangerines) and from the curio cupboard.  But the way they are all living together, as they do in my real life, is what is striking to me, and enjoyable.  Flowers in vase, a shawl thrown over the back of the chair of draped on the piano – the black and white photo of my great great grandmother, the little candy dish in teal green: these are all lifted from my morning straightening-the-house rituals, and my evening sprucing.

It is 5:20.  I’m 6 hours into painting and it’s really time to clean my brushes and set aside the work in progress.  So I sit and look, wondering where it will go tomorrow.

 

 

Circling

Moon Over Coast

Moon Over Coast 48"x48"

Staying at the easel today means circling.  I put down one stroke of paint and then walk away.  Find another canvas that needs work and work on that.  Go back to the first painting and lay down another stroke.  Walk away, look at it from the sofa, turn the lights on and off and on again, put the painting on the mantel, walk away, look back, lay down another stroke.

Go back to the second painting.  Wipe out everything I added, and then some, until the painting has gone back three generations.  Another painting seems improved by my attention, but now, as I write this, seems too dark, too dense.

I put the water on for tea. I make the bread, do the laundry, glance at paintings as I walk in and out of the room.

Not a day of huge progress.  More a sense that today is a good day to paint the edges of canvases, something I can’t mess up.

There a lot of days like this.  It’s the work of showing up.

Moon Over Coast

Moon Over Coast 48"x48"